John, my husband says, "you're being a victim right now…How's that workin' for ya"
I think, "it's not working but I can't see a way out right now". The self-loathing, the self-pity…it's not working for me.
But life feels like a journey too hard to take right now; as if everthing I want comes with a looming obstacle course as a prerequisite. Nothing has ever been easy for me and I don't know if I have it in me to pull off anymore great feets. I mean, ya, I've gone to school, I've earned degrees, My No More Tar Roofs campaign was successful (so far). I have a beautiful daughter but what have I done?